Where do our loved ones go when they die?  If you have Christian faith, we would naturally hope that they go to heaven.  What is heaven and where exactly is it? A question that is millenniums old, and a conversation that has been had many times over.

Since the Yeti has transformed into the afterlife, my thoughts of heaven have shifted.  I used to think that heaven was “up there”, with marble floors and choirs of angels, with all souls clothed in white.  God would be on his throne with flowing white locks, with Jesus to his right.  Serene, quiet, reverent heaven.

My belief in heaven how is that it is closer than we could imagine.  I see heaven as being on the other side of a thin white veil that divides life and the afterlife.  A “parallel realm”, if you will.

I believe in signs…

When people say “he is always with you”, I actually feel that now.  I feel his presence and I think he is leaving me signs.  Some of these little heavenly gifts that I’ve received include dimes, left in unusual spots, which make me wonder “HOW did that get there?”!  Other treasures have included feathers, special stones and visits from animals in nature.

Some people encourage me and agree that these signs are messages from my beloved Yeti, and others roll their eyes and think I’m crazy.  That’s completely okay.  If these messages are a comfort to me, and make me smile, then I think there is no harm.  Believe me, comfort is hard to come by in grief, and I will accept the signs with love and delight.

Earth Angels…

Surprises also come my way from my “earth angels”.  These people are dear friends and acquaintances who have brought me flowers or sent me a perfect message on days when my Yeti knows I need a special “pick me up”.   I believe he uses these people by inspiring them to show his love to me through their acts of kindness.  It is the most special gift.

How is this all possible?  It certainly is a mystery of life! These signs are blessings.  He sends me these signs as an extension of his love, and, he just wants to see me smile.  I have been told that because I am open to the signs, I see them.

I know that when in this life, he told me that he would love me forever, and he meant it.  Forever in this life and into the next.  He hasn’t gone away or forgotten me.  Many times, I feel he walks beside me, in the “parallel realm” called heaven.

If he were far away “up there”, how could he perform these small miracles when I least expect them?  This is why I think he is “right here”. Right next to me as I navigate my arduous days of my grief journey, to show me that there is light through the darkness.  There is joy scattered in amongst the sadness, and, there is love.  Eternal love.

Read from the beginning:

Grief- Day One